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i often get the feeling that the news and market are scripted, but i'm feeling extra certain of that today. totally feeling stuck in the matrix at the moment. don't like where my head is at and worried i might lose it again. today's dreams were weirder than usual too, sometimes precedes that sort of thing. maybe leaving my room will help. i'll be gone during trading hours the next two days and plan to be out this weekend too. one email could rearrange all my plans and make me a full-time writer, and i'm hoping that happens but i feel that might take a miracle. life does sometimes surprise you though. just gonna keep listening to my heart and doing what it tells me, but feeling kind of like i've lost my path and i'm gonna have to wander in darkness for a bit, hope to emerge someplace better. thankful to /smg/ for being the place i've put my feelings these last 6 or 7 months, a lot has changed for me, but i want badly to be out of here now.
