>>9441552Yes. And he's always been with you because of it.
When you finally do succeed in humbling yourself before God, you'll find it was as easy as turning around.
>>9441554Dope. This is literally my only goal for this life.
>>9441555Read St John of The Cross, and understand that this world has been decaying from the fall.
My father's from Germany. Has a viewpoint many anglos find depressingly severe. I've been told I inherited it.
Coming from a "negative" viewpoint, my greatest recommendation is to simply meditate upon the crucifixion. Read a chapter, or pray the Sorrowful Mysteries. Pray to The Blessed Mother, St Anne, St John the Apostle, St John of the Cross, St Ignatius, or your own patron for assistance in mystic prayer, and place yourself at the foot of The Cross.
My favorite prefiguration for this is the bronze serpent. Read Exodus if you want a refresher.
>>9441563"I understand where you're at with this. But my Church is broken, and I have a duty to help heal her.
Would you have jumped ship following (kgb revelation/Constantinople/persecution specific to their own)?"
>>9441633Rheims for shitposting in the notes. Revised Standard for poetry. New American for accuracy from the oldest sources available.
>>9441670Take a load off, brother. Perhaps you can begin to describe the problem and we can pray together.
(This coming from someone who has literally experienced demonic harassment. There is nothing too large or small.)
Reminder: Michael "Who can compare to God" for protection, Raphael "God heals" for healing.