>>11182807I was never under the impression I could reap the dole as a non citizen, and how could I get citizenship unless I were to work for it
don't get me wrong, I would've never worked hard and never use my free and sick days, I would've worked only as much as I needed and not an inch more, nothing personal, I'm just sick at living in a clown world
>morphineI was raised in a household that couldn't accomodate for my rapid cognitive developement so I grew up under a lot of stress
I made my first remark on wanting to not ever be born or die when I was 8 years old
I grew an alchoholic personality when I was 16 to 17, after I reduced my alchoholic intake I made my first large promise of ending my own life, this lasted until I was 18 when I started intaking large amounts of marijuana which had little to no effect on my health, behaviour or cognitive capacities as long as I could take it whenever I "needed" it, I was even able to quit alchohol more or less for good
see unlike my sister- that only consumes strong stimulants like cocaine, speed and molly- I peeffer downers to reduce my stress
I am perfectly capable of staying sober when I'm not under stress, but you see how it is, all my resources have been depleted, my close relatives threaten me with a police charge, my dealer betrayed me, I got nowhere else to go but my poppies
>opportunitiesit offers works due to demamd for medical professionals; nobody wants to work because the entirity of the institution is corrupt and those without connections pull on pity money instead of a paycheck