>>11903496I lost the damn post
okay so to summarise I do crunchey slready, can't do too many I don't wantbto fuckup my spine
I eat absurdly less thsn any other holidsy season... which is normal dietery intake for me anyhow
the stress likely comey from an upcoming math test
I can't focus for the life of me
tired from work in the mornings due to lack of sleep and no time when I work the afternoon shift
the days I'm home my relatives are home
I don't know johm but from my perspective when theres no mandatory force that makes me study I need like a 4 hour prep time and I mustn't bd interrupted until I'm done studying at like midnight
this does not go hand in hand when I noe absolutely need to work to pay uni and drivers school (I might give up on the ladder though)
I keep rereading same chapters like five times sithout remembering shit, it's really infuriating, I can't get a peace of mind and it's going to fuck me up badly in two weeks
prepare for second shizophrenic breakdown
hell out of desperation I even tried microdose ephedrine (40 mg, I usually took 70mg)- that old chestnut... that osychotic chestnut
I just ended up jerking off without being able to cum which made me feel even more stressed and then the intrusive thoughts got in my head again
it's not that I look fatter, I SEE MYSELF AS FATTER
