>>17977211i mean, at night/early morning, it can't be that bad, and i doubt you have a normal circadian rhythm if you're as terminally online as i think you are. i don't think belonging is a bad thing, madokanon. i think you've carved yourself a nice little niche here to enjoy, and people not only accept your presence, but embrace it.
just stop struggling against yourself because you can't really change who you are. you can only really become more of yourself, and this isn't a bad thing because it leads to greater satisfaction with life (not a linear phenomenon by any means though)