>>19505642You're speaking of integration and dis-integration.
You cannot achieve understanding without integration. You can of course find yourself closer to the source if you take on what you're describing, which if I understand you correctly is similar to the ascetic life of the Greek cynics such as Diogenes.
But I still think it will be a half life. You will be living just to die, which ignores the beauty of life.
I think my soul was born into this "character" as you call it, by choice. If that's the case don't we owe it to our true selves to fully explore the person we chose to be born as on this go around? This is exactly why all the good religions and philosophies emphasize the importance of childlike innocence and even more importantly PLAYFULNESS.
Play your part and have fun with it, that's the meaning of this life. Unity with the source will be there for you when you die either way. And if you're curious you can explore it now, and you seem to be doing that, but I believe when you achieve what you're looking for, you'll learn that what I'm saying is true, and that's great! because you'll learn to play again.
