Honestly? Torture. No matter how bad shit gets, I have always reserved the right to kill myself. If I have to die horribly, most likely it won't be long before I can just give in and slip away. When I'm spooked in the dark I can calm myself down by thinking 'hey the worst thing that can happen is I die'.
But torture is something different. I human, with their endless cunning, preventing my every action to the point of even preventing my death for the sole purpose of causing me pain. They can cut my fingers off, skin my benis, pull my teeth, flay me, burn me, electrocute me, etc. The list is endless and my brain will keep on firing a pain response no matter how bad I want it to stop. They could keep me alive for days, weeks, months. Just imagine yourself in the shoes of that Japanese girl who was tortured for 44 days. It's completely possible to be that cruel to another person, and it is my greatest fear that it will happen to me.
>>818394I fucking hope there's no god or afterlife. To cease to exist after a long grueling life climaxed by a final frightening and most likely painful moment is easily the thought I draw the most comfort from.
