>>16379444>oh shit so you're still figuring everything out, huh?i mean, i already had a good understanding of what my life would probably be like at this stage, and i guessed pretty well, but i still just kind of feel empty
as an adult things feel like they've just kind of slowed to a near halt whereas i thought things would be getting harder, maybe i'm just impatient
the goals i have seem unrealistic for me to obtain yet everything else feels like its well below my ability, which for normal people might be a relief because easy job means easy cash but regardless of the job i'm doing all i feel is the movement of time regardless if i'm doing something annoying or not
i honestly though in highschool i could do a trade job, then when i got my first job i made the mistake of working at a cabinet factory, which while paid well, its part of the reason for all the stress i had so i quit, i'll never be looking at any sort of trade job again because factories are hell, because the movement of time there is so slow and yet they wanted me to work 50+ hours a week, all i felt was terror at the idea of being one of the hundreds of people there who's life amounted to working like a slave
i feel like i've been driven into a split in the road where the only options i'm left with are to slave at a shitty job to get the pay i want or to live like a neet at a part time job until i'm forced to take the shitty job to pay for things like rent, when all i want is the nice job in distance that requires a college education but really shouldnt need more than a highschool education, i cant do college math, i dont want to go back to school for 4 more years just for the sake of the possibility of getting that ungaraunteed job and wasting so much money on it