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>the Duke Dmitri and Dr. Lazaret hold me down
>I am barely awake, but they know I am
>I try to get them to understand what they are doing
>I stare at them with my one twitching, tear-soaked eye
>they don't look back
>they cannot
>the only thing they can do is ignore what terrible crime they have committed
>it is enough to leave a man distraught, the burden of death
>I knew this omen myself, and would carry it to my grave
>as I lay in that car trunk I can only think of my former wife
>I wish I had memory of achievement to look back upon and feel happy about
>but I could not think of one
>I abandoned all who loved me
>I left my wife for a life of crime when I should have faced my consequences
>but I lied to you, and I abandoned you, Praskovia
>I abandoned you, Dmitri, Varvara, Matryona
>I hurt those I loved and I would pay the ultimate price for it
>being sick, and in constant hurt, I try to make myself fall asleep
>but the car stops
>the Duke and Felix appear to me
>with my one eye I try to peer out and see what is out there
>the Niva river
>I feel myself getting picked up
>and Lord it is painful
>I find myself unable to weep
>my attempts to fight back are useless
>I hear a great sigh as they swing me back and throw me into the river
>my heart is racing
>my cries are that of a beasts' cry
>I try to swim myself out but I can only attempt to claw my way out of the ice
>but the ice is too thick
>they stare at me as I sink to the bottom
>there is no one but me now
>no pain anymore
>just silence
>an eternity of dark, cold, cruel silence
>I failed you
>I failed you all
