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Autism I guess.
I have no sense of the emotion people call "loneliness". I can't relate to it at all. I don't hate people, and do enjoy group activities but I lack the basic component that drives people to seek relationships.
I have had friends at times when someone made a deliberate effort to draw me into their circle, but when contact is only initiated by one side the relationship always evaporates.
I have been making a conscious effort now to join and stay active in social groups around hobbies, just to stave off boredom. Human friends bring unpredictability that ensures I keep experiencing new things and don't just live the same day on repeat. But I haven't been building anything more deep.
The parts of being alone that get to me are boredom from repetition, the insecurity that people think I'm a loser for having no friends, and most of all being treated with suspicion that I'm up to some evil.
