>>8822461>Well no, because affection isn't earned by belittling and subtly insultingI da know, I may have exaggerated. I mean it felt like that at the time, like that's what he was doing.
Maybe I kinda feel bad about it because towards the end of the date when I started laughing about things he would say and was getting really sarcastic about it, there was a moment, I could feel his aura, when he realized he fucked up and kinda got quiet. Who knows how emotions paint memories. It was just so annoying though and I didn't really say anything about it at first. I kinda just blinked and ignored it. I could have maybe handled it better. If he was insecure, and not actually arrogant, then maybe he was over compensating. I just feel real bad about hurting people. but at the same time I was just so pissed. Fucking nothing I said was right. Nothing I said was an "oh interesting fact. Cool". The conversation wasn't fun. It was combative. For no reason. I didn't bring it there. He did. But still, what should I have done? Maybe I could have thought about it and said just in plain english "can we have more fun with this conversation rather than being competitive?" I'm finding in life that apparently the best thing to do is just strip all things away and say purely what it is you want and what is bothering you. Subtle shit doesn't work. I da know. I feel justified but also "what if"y about it
