>>15556213don't worry anon, it takes time, to find some kind of peace, it was the most difficult thing i ever did and it took years, some time ago i felt like reached a small cliff to rest on while climbing the steep mountain that is life, i put my trust in the universe, in god, that the world will go on and on, even when i one day leave this earth, the world is a beautiful intricate thing and just by merely existing we stir this soup around, the beatings of a butterfly's wings can change all of history, i gave up my desires of wanting to change this world outside of the present moment, i tried not get hung up on vain things and eventually this became my truth, my belief, and my anger and anxiety gradually vanished, i also found that great joy had been buried within me under long accumulation, joy i've now begun to unearth, i think you have a lot of joy buried within you as well, and i'm certain you will find it if you keep searching.
