>>22403897I heard what you said in the conversation but I can't read the rest because the font. All I know is when someone uses the phrase that , "they are going to get rid of me." I know it as a very serious threat that is usually acted upon and not a joke, this fear can be mistaken as mental illness if nobody understands the situation you are kept in by abusers. Some people manipulate everyone, even people that are supposed to help until they have everyone against you and the worse thing you can do is even try to adress to abusers what they have done to hurt you, or they just make it worse.
Try to stay safe, not get cornered, and have an exit plan. Be thankful you have people that you are allowed to talk to that care about your life, and that you are allowed to get medical care without threats and violence. There is no excuse for violence and threatening senseless violence and destruction all day. I understand with someone like this it can be scary to even write the truth down somewhere they might find it, or speak the truth where they will hear you say it and know they will retaliate again and again without anyone caring that you get hurt. I wish I had more answers, I've been stuck in this cycle most of my life. I've begged to be killed when I was being hurt my most painful injuries, now I just try to keep living with all that's happened and the daily tests it's difficult but I know I'm not crazy also, just afraid. People can not fathom what happens if I so much as show my happiness or speak to anyone, I am extremely isolated on purpose, that was how it was so easy for my abusers to hurt me.
