>>2850111You need a feel to fire your self up. Why would you want to grind daily for these things? It sounds like none of it is motivating you. You also probably have depression.
What is your diet like? Are you /fit/? Have you had your T levels checked?
You probably need to correct some sort of chemical imbalance, and it's better to do it without pharmacological aid.
I got fired up over how bad math/physics education was and wrote my own curriculum that now sells really well. I travel around, do lectures, and talk to others who are enthusiastic about the topics I care about.
