>>10548959well everybody does, it's just a glass I cum in and return to cupboard afterwards
>>10548951I mean, like, porn distracts me for like an hour a day... but it all goes to shit once they return home
I...I wouldn't know what can possibly work
>most don't need it, their life is more than just a grind and they have something that drives them forwardit probably would, it's like... fuck I just get dizzy when I have to deal with paperwork here and there checkouts all that just makes me nauseous to the brink of throwing up
chu know what I mean, it feels like if I had somebody in the past that would tell me the generic "you can do it" I probably would have but now even of I had a brown gf by my side that would lead my hand all the way to therapist's room now I just couldn't, I need a scene that validates my warding but I'll do myself more bad than good that way
>arbeitohard to do when I don't even know where to look, google isn't helping either, thing is they are all so goddamn far away and it's a hassle to go with the bus where my bike can, most part time jobs are only seasonal at that
I'm afraid I've gone too deep to ever quit, with my addictive persona I'll be huffing glue by the end of the year
>ah, makes sense, I forgot to mention I have a shitty personality based on excuses and self incapacity to do anything rightno it's englified version of croatian "stažiranje" , sometimes underpaid sometimes not paid at all
I guess, but now it's too late for compromises like that, I need a full time seasonal job to pay debt, and then I'm scramming out of uni for actual employment
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