>>11101425I mean I've always understood that. Hence the >shy, reserved
part.
But I dont lack empathy.
Basically your only option is to not engage at all or to manipulate the fuck out of people like a psychopath, which i don't like either.
Being neurotic, knowing that I'm doing what I'm doing, even if it yields positive results e.g. sex, people liking me, etc. I fucking hate doing it. It's not genuine and it literally feelsbadman. I am using my superior theory of mind to drive outcomes. I just want to have a genuine connection with other human beings that doesn't feel like a power game.
