>>11033273well they in a sense are programmed but patches exist, it's just that a lot of patches are gay as fuck
in this dominantly christian world theres no such thing as turning the other cheek, hell theres not even any eye for an eye philosophy, it's just heavier retaliation
if I curse your mother you shouldn't be doing anything beyond cursing my mother, but most people will regress into fistacuffs because violence is all they know
I can't say I'm any different, I regress to violence aswell but I try to keep it in only for those that break the line and actually commit to violence against me
in the end the person that caused me the most suffering was myself but I'm not going to start punching myself for it... or anything else for that matter
it just feels like nothing in life can figured out and you're just doing the sissyphian labour of figuring everything out when all of the facts, theories, valid hipothesises, modes if operation, truths, recollections and even memories are fake and barely close aproximations of something inobservable and clandestine in nature
you end up unable to morally justify any of your actions, then any other action ever
excuses, pardons, condemnations and condonings in history are just not enough, but then again nothing that ever happened was bad that it needs excuses of culture, biology, incompetance, mistakes or greater cause... let alone desserve them
then you realise you became s cynical nihilist and you understand why nobody likes you but you don't fully absorb that information as you stopped carrying for other people for a long long time, such a long time
