>>376952I've already experienced enough hell to last the rest of my life travelled constantly met new people, i went to brazil all by myself to meet an ex who dumped me after i spent 6k to make the trip happen. I've experienced the world and it always feels the same, every part of it. I started antidepressants and antianxiety meds to maybe curb that feeling but if it doesn't work I'm kind of out of luck.
>>376954Ya anything that takes away control. I'm so used to being in ultimate control even when i was in pro play i felt lik ei had ultimate control over the team and people just automatically respected me because i have a standoffish better than everyone personality. i wish someone would just crack it.
>>376989i dont know if i should feel bad about you considering liking me being equivalent to being a faggot but i dont even know what to think about myself. my girlfriend is definitely cute i dont know how she could ever like someone like me. im amazed anyone can look at me and not see some kind of disgusting freak, but i do have some kind of mental illness like dysmorphia where i legit just hate myself when i look in the mirror.
