>>11185755okay lets do this
>contradictionoh my, are my inbetween lines so blurry? maybe it's due to the fact we started this thread off too early and you might be tired but I'm not going to pretend like I know what it is and why it is, damn that seems patronising a bit, I'm digging my own whole here let's just get down to the business
it's not that I want to leave uni forever as I said multiple tomes by now- I'm not dumb, I know that a STEM degree goes a long way forward and I want that degree but the time isn't now
as I said, I kinda really need to take drugs in order to pass year after year, no ifs no buts, my situation isn't accomodated in a way that I just get to waltz in, do all that I have to do with no effort before nor any consequences after
I don't want to risk my long term health for something that as far as I can see and as far as facts lead me to believe can be done with little effort as long as conditions are tight
I'm not ready, emotionally, physicaly, psychological to maintain my attempts at uni which offer me no rewards with nothing to look forward to
starring into the abyss for 5 years is incredibly anxiety fueling and all I want is an inch of comoassion in that regard as this is really not something that I have to do that I cannot catch a break for it
if the future is such that I may in turn not be able to go to iniversity: if that is the situation the future holds I'm afraid I never had a chance to pass in the first place, I tried my best at providing information as to how I learn and how I cannot possibly learn but lack of experience on listening party's behalf just seens to forbid them from acceoting my claims as anything other than hogwash
in a simple analogy: if I was a goldfish and I tried to exolain to my owners why I may not climb a tree- their lack of MY experience makes then think I'n making shit up as they can climb trees just perfectly
