>>6461396Maybe it's because I did live in ignorance, anon... I can guarantee you it's not bliss.
You're stuck in a first person experience without the detached third person perspective helping you reason things out. No insights, very few developmental breakthroughs like eureka moments, the universe around you just kind of happens to you.
For reference, I started life as a nonverbal, not even present in my body. It was just a cold, silent darkness observing a frolicking animal, and feeling supreme dissatisfaction. It was similar to watching a character in a movie, or a friend playing a video game, and thinking "I know how to fix this!" "Danger ahead, you can avoid it~!" "That's not smart, you'll break a bone or worse if you do that."
Normalfags will fuck with you over personal flaws or developmental issues, or just ignorance like not knowing you smell weird. They'll tell you there's a problem, but not having the intellectual capacity to troubleshoot or reason things out will leave you isolated worse than that silent darkness or over-thinking -- you'd know human connections are a thing, and you'd want them but won't have them until you happen to stumble upon a source of your problems. That's the ignorance they face.
I believe what you're getting at is "I don't like this game the way it is now, I like who I am well enough but I would prefer something more rewarding." I can empathize with the desire for something more clear-cut or direct, I'm not sure if that translates to simpler though.
On another, different level of this discussion, there's personal development. When you grow beyond a certain stage, you become more like a carefree child focused only on your ambitious interests, for better or worse. This is what I believe the inherent desire is, for a... freer mind, gained by development and expanded consciousness; one not as tethered to the existential troubles.
We can go down the ladder, to the ignorance of normalfags, or rise higher. Go higher anon.
