>>18693026I have failed at most things in my life, probably because I don't have the will to finish them, I am depressed. A man is only a failure if he quits. If you fall you can get right back up. If you hit rock bottom the only direction to go from here is up. But if you do fail at everything just remember that God only requires your faith. That's what keeps me going. I am a mamzer so I wont live forever, I have accepted this fate. I hope to be reborn as an Aryan man somehow somewhere in the next life. It would be nice to be reborn as a king or a rich bourgeois boy or something, but as long as I am reborn a pure White man it doesn't matter to me. But if I did live forever, I would have all eternity to perfect every skill and accomplish every feat imaginable until I have become a complete and proper god. I study all day, recently I have been studying Buddhism, not because I am going to convert, but because I just love soaking up knowledge to get smarter, I am a NEET, I can do this. I have learned many things on my own. I have yet to perfect my math skills but I am going to even learn that. We live in a knowledge based economy, I could ace any test in the world and get any job I want when I am done. I have even dabbled in economics to the best of my ability(I suck at math so no pondering with calculus.) This thread is one of my conclusions:
https://archive.4plebs.org/pol/thread/430816113/#430816629 