>>10371583>>10371592basically I had, not even knowingly, been struggling with self image issues for the last 7 years cause I have aspergers, although its been merged with autismos now so Im just legit bit autisitc and I denied it for all that time and I hated myself along with losing some family and just in general being isolated; people treat you different, its subtle and Im in the high functiong that I notice it and it always made me feel so alone so then in an one big attempt I tried to run awy from everything and fled to another state, but of course my problems followed me there and dragged me back where it finally took over for a bit with big sad and I ruined literally everything but then I saw the monster I was becoming and then that started another long journey of self acceptance, and then I had to let go of griefs I held for all those years along with the idea that my life was alway going to be bad
then after that I was just in a small period of shock because everything was over just like that
and then I began to focus on learning how to deal with my condition and taking its strengths and running with them which in turn helped me focus on my other goals which I began to work towards which is where we are at now, Im not in the exact point I wish I was but I am proud of the progress Ive made in that short year
k story time over bye
