>>6479642You might say, upon reading this, that it is stupid to think this way. And I agree. But this is not conscious, but rather subconscious. I know this, partly thanks to some lengthy introspection, and also talks with various therapists and psychologists.
Now my only solution is to succeed: to become fully independent, and pay back my parents before they are gone. Only then will I be at peace with myself.
Sorry to make you read through this, and thank you if you did.
