>>16848470Okay, so I'm not disagreeing with anything you have posted, and congratulate you on gradually increasing in self-awareness as time has gone by. That said, I really have to press you on why you haven't "sealed the deal" yet at 31? This isn't to bait you or make you suffer, but SOMEONE has to push you on this essential question to your development if you haven't done it to yourself yet.
As a gesture of good will: I was incredibly socially awkward and literally autistic which is why I never so much as even got a date when I was a teenager or even a young adult at drinking age. But even I managed to bump into a woman who wanted to go to bed with me, in spite of the fact I was still a 'sperg' at 22. But so was she in her own way. And she was 5 years older than me - so maybe I was her fetish for younger men. Regardless: I found a woman I could socially interact with pleasantly to the point where we went to bed with each other. It wasn't a perfect relationship, but it was at least a fun one while it lasted.
So in the interests of your own self development: Why do you think you haven't at least STUMBLED into a similar situation yet? Even if purely by accident? How often do you actually leave the house and interact with with people face-to-face? Because that's how I met my first girlfriend I lost my virginity to: I was traveling when I met her.
