>>5419547Last week sometime around June 26 or 27 I had some sort of wake up call.
I started fasting, stopped masturbating, went for walks and gym, and stopped playing video games. I don't know why it happened, but it's buzzed off since Saturday. I felt a beautiful high and I was so energetic. I could do anything. I had a slight tick to myself and sometimes would uncontrollably snap for a second. I had thoughts about suicide and never being able to fulfill my dreams. I don't know why this happened, I don't know how it happened, but I wanted it to last forever. I still have stopped masturbating and I still fast and do all that other stuff, but the energy is gone. The one key component that drove me is dead and I fear I may die with it, soon.
In fact, I'm not sure if nofap, fasting, etc. was a cause for it or the products of this feeling, but it has led me to a complete aversion for sexual lust. Whenever I see a beautiful girl, I only see a girl. This itself is actually good, but it is something I have noted.
