>>19372852Ash's palm crashed down against the desk with a deafening thunk.
>BECAUSE IT'S TOO FUCKING LATE!>BECAUSE ANY TIME /I/ GET INVOLVED, IT ENDS UP WORSE!>Because not only do I have to be rational and logical, but I have to somehow navigate the emotional and impulsive too!>Because I don't get the PRIVILEGE to have it easy! To just say "Fuck X, I'm in Y's camp"!>I have to sit here and try to make sense of Kanako's actions, because she's my God damn student too.>I have to sit here and try to talk Carmody down, because she-... WAS my God damn student too.>I have to sit here and relay both of these things to Paule, who just wants it all to stop.>And I have to sit here and be impartial to someone who I'm certain, deep down, doesn't want me to be.>Because it's easy then!>I can call Kanako in right now and "make an example of her".>Because she knowingly aided Nika - God knows WHY!>But at the same time, I have to tell her and Paule that Carmody and yourself refering to Priscilla as a good friend, ALSO knowing what SHE'S done, "isn't a big deal.">And just to be clear, I don't care about that at ALL!>I'm so fucking over THAT whole mess or I thought I WAS!Ash inhaled, still burning in a rage she's long since expressed.
>So Kanako's fucking up royally, but God damn it, at least it's not out of malice or vengeance. >Meanwhile, Carmody has every right to be upset, but chooses to align with somebody who's done even worse.>I got done wrestling ten matches in a few weeks, spending more time in that ring than anybody in either block, with a middling lower half placement to show for it on top of traveling back and forth to Japan>I'm hurt>I'm tired>and the Dojo's in fucking shambles because>I CAN'T HAVE SHIT>AND APPARENTLY NO ONE CAN BE BOTHERED TO JUST CALL MY FUCKING CELL PHONE!!![1/2]
