>>5549247That's phase 2.
You've managed to pump enough energy back into yourself that you aren't being destroyed, and if you really do it, you can actually pass the full escape velocity, and slingshot away. And you kinda get your life back, with some shit off in the distant past you ignore.
But there's a 3rd brutal option.
>Transformation>You let it eat you, you hold your shit all the way through as it consumes your gay little star of a "self".>you get ripped apart, scattered, obliterated, but you aren't dead-dead. You didn't commit suicide, you entered it, suffered the pain, and now you're... not inside>You ARE the black hole; all the "lost" energy is yours again, and suddenly you look out to find a sea of stars orbiting you>You died, and were reborn - a psychic reincarnation.>What others can suffer and strive with all their hearts to resist is nothing to you, you have a halo around you, an accretion disk of energy that just comes to you straight from the universe.>"trying" and spending energy not to be sad is no longer required at all.>You are darkness and light, a complete, fully individuated human being. A force among the forced, a continent among islands. 