>>17037850i know, nobody cares. i'm hopelessly alone and forgotten about. i cannot even seek comfort within myself, as i am my own worst adversary. i live with a longing for love, yet it is drained out of my life as i grow more and more miserable, choosing to drown myself with pleasure in the pursuit of hedonism in a desperate attempt to numb the pain from deep emotional wounds. i have been abandoned and left to rot, with the last of my will succumbing to the overwhelming despair, where reality reigns cruelly, and the spirit's only sustenance can be found within the misery of others. it does not matter what happens to me. i do not matter. i barely even exist.
