>>16143216I am in the same boat as you anon. I wake up every morning joyless, and most of the activities I used to enjoy don't call me like they used to. I used to be an artist, and I can barely get a sketch out anymore. It just isn't motivating. I was prescribed zoloft at age 13 and spent many years thinking I needed it. Only recently (3-4 years ago) realized that my state of mind isn't because of a defective hormonal ratio, but rather a normal reaction to a rotten world. Haven't been able to successfully wean myself off since, considering going to a hospital to do so, but seriously worried about that because of the risk of being committed. People tend to freak out when you tell them you don't want to take your meds anymore, they think you want to kill yourself or they're just uncomfortable with your protests like most npc's are. I don't really know what to do. I'm active, hike, bike, kayak and climb, but still. Been considering going to trade school to take my mind off it, because I think an actually productive, not-jewish job would satisfy me. Don't know though. Anyway anon, I feel you.
