>>4048116By the wording of your post I could say you sound a little sad. Am I right? Why not focus on what you can do now instead of worrying about what you haven't done?
I bet there is something right now that you can do that will make you feel genuinely good now and later. Coming up with these ideas is rather easy.
>>4048109I hope you can have something nice with it, as long as it really didn't have an owner!
>>4048154If that's what works for you... Just so you know, there is always you can do to be better.
There's no use to being resentful or looking down on others.