>>18691921I too am patiently awaiting the call of my lord to come home. I used to worry I wanted to die to such a degree it I was suicidal but I'm not. I then I saw Stalker and the idea of the room bothered me quite a bit. I knew if I walked in there it would be nothing. If it gave me what I truly wanted it would make me drop dead or blink me out of existence the moment I crossed the threshold. Now I know the truth. That the pain of existence is felt by us an individual so must let go, forget, and sand away ourselves until all that remains of who we once were is dust scattered in the wind. You do not want death. You want peace. You want tranquility. You want to be free of yourself so struggle with all your strength to make your I become a we.
