>>8449436i just wanted to get it off my chest because sometimes i don't even feel like i'm a real person anymore, but rather a bunch of pretty faulty approximations at what i think a human being is while the fundamental lense of my being is absolutely fractured
they can tell you that as a result of your life experience you sometimes default to your 'lizard brain', aka the fight or flight response that you consciously have to work your way around. but expecting anyone else to care that you're fucked in the head is honestly too much for just anyone to want to deal with. i don't blame anybody, i don't feel ditched, shit i just don't care that's what really bothers me. i don't actually give a fuck i just give my best guess at pretending to give a fuck but i know i don't.
maybe i'll meet someone really nice through this app i got, maybe it'll work, maybe i won't have to even post on this shithole anymore
