>>15929829>That's pretty worrying that you didn't eat or anything for so long, you know, at that point of forcing yourself into productivityoh actually the weird thing is, those days when i was literally starving i wasnt being productive at all, actually the opposite, just spent the whole day playing league of legends alone, i still plaeyd games and had fun on the ultraproductive days, i think the reason i starved myself was because i felt like theres no reason to live
because my irl that i liked talking to didnt text me back or talk with me for almost 2 months so i got really mad/sad, even though they did say they were gonna be busy their last message was saying sorry cuz when we talked for a few hours they had to leave to help their brother with his garden and we could talk again sometime soon and i messaged them saying np and to let me know when but they never did so i was really mad/sad about that for pretty much all this time even smashing stuff and one of the things that broke shattered and slashed me and it still hurts and i have a scar even though it was weeks ago now but 2 weeks ago i did finally message them back and ask if they can talk sometime and they said yeah and apologized again because theyve been really busy but i havent replied to that because idk i guess it feels like talking to thenm is gonna be so rare now so i want to be ready to talk to them so i dont waste the chance but i think i'm just being retarded and if i actually messaged them earlier they wouldve said yes sometime too so i just have to actually message them, i think i'll reply today
wall of text feels bad man
also the day after i last talked with my friend i actually reached out to my friend that gave me the nightmare of people getting dismembered where i couldnt sleep and thats been kinda weird too but im almost at char limit and dont wanna spam too much, i'll post about that sometime later
anyway you watch any anime or play anything "new"?
