>>11200170>The part I left out was that I keep my interaction at a minimum BECAUSE I have to rely on other peoples reactions. It's tiresome. And annoying. Much easier when I'm alone."I have absolutely no pleasure in the stimulants in which I sometimes so madly indulge. It has not been in the pursuit of pleasure that I have periled life and reputation and reason. It has been the desperate attempt to escape from torturing memories, from a sense of insupportable loneliness and a dread of some strange impending doom."
Edgar Allan Poe
