>>23182539>I delete all my fanfics because I don't wish anyone else to suffer from overlewdness.People hold jobs as pornstars and shitty adult rpg games that haven't evolved since 2010 and have only higher quality pre rendered cutscenes to speak for the evolution in computing. I don't think you are doing any person any sort of favor by holding yourself back creatively.
I'm not even saying this with a hope of reading it, you take it down because you are uncomfortable that somehow the fanfic writings you published will somehow be the tilting decision of why society is fucked? Hey, anything goes if it makes you sleep better.
I have an innate ability to definitely connect opposing groups if I genuinely sat down and dedicated myself to it. Why don't I? Maybe make a shitty web comic and possibly make someone think and give myself something to do? Because I personally procrastinate not even at creating, but at absolutely hating both sides of the fucking coin. Not that anything I have to say is the internet equivalent of breaking down the berlin wall, but it definitely could help the ignorant who just follow whatever makes the most sense the fastest.
I can't speak for all the reasons you conclude your fanfic is an aide to evil, but could it be more because you want to justify your shame for yourself/self interests?
You mentioned being burdened by hypersexuality and your kinks, why not try and surround yourself with others who are into that sort of thing?
Hell I love porn because there are days I feel like fucking shite. Utter stain on my own floor and even though I could have sex, I emotionally feel like shit because I'm adopted and mommy and daddy never really loved me.
Not to say that porn is something to absolutely depend on in my case, I don't, but for some people it's not a bad thing if that's what can help them cultivate a life they (you) are fine with.
I could be just preaching to the choir but I can relate to what you've said to an extent. (pg 1/?)