>>12386443>what did you do to let religion into your life?I just studied history and then religions then I simply connected the Isiah to Jesus bridge of not understood in their times but were dead right. Figuring out Pauline Christianity is the trickiest part as a light chain looks a lot like armed protection at times and only Mark keep Jesus's commandment not to lie even for the sake of expansion of His teachings. Soon after you realize that the word of God is a life altering thing should you want or need it, that is what Isiah and Jesus were talking about. The Kingdom of Heaven is outside and inside you. Then after that, you start seeing the radical Marxist word as the complete opposite. Truth vs Subversion is Good vs Evil. You see it play out on a macro scale, corrupt individuals corrupting everything they touch for their own selfish short term gain.
But where this fits into your grieving, that is up to you to embrace your own mortality, your views on life and its purpose. You are having to adjust to life being a temporary thing and you will lose everything. But know that your Mother is no longer suffering, like you are now, and time will heal even though it feels the opposite. I am sorry for your loss. Religion can comfort in these matters, but know that life and death never exist at the same time and so keep living until you can no longer and then rest forever in peace.
A lot of your path forward is just thinking and pondering about what it is and what you want to do before it is over. Try to learn yourself.
