>>7749280Are you me? I feel the exact same way. Even when I was super conscious of my looks and attitude, I could see the disgust in other peoples voice and looks. It hurts to live with the feeling of constant rejection. After losing my last support in life I have now resigned to a NEET life till death comes for me, one way or an other, distracting myself with mindless self-indulgence in he mean time.
I dont care how I look anymore, tking basic steps a day for hygiene reasos only. Some attitude adjustments I made in the past now stuck with me and so i don't bother with how I act either, not consciously at least.
And Honestly talking to my online friends is all the social interaction I need. I like being alone after.
What I am saying is i am becoming content with my current life, even if it is a life that isn't sustainable. But who knows maybe I'll get lucky and get to live like this for a while and then I can just kms like I always planned to.
