>>10414819Because pretty much everything in my life is fucked. I have no family, no friends (because I panic just from talking to anyone), I dropped out of high school because I came down with an autoimmune disease called bechets which ravaged my poor friggin testicles (they're so scarred they're looking like Freddy Kruger) along with my lungs/heart/knees/feet/wrists. I have permanent damage in my knee from being abused, and I've been enduring constant pain from multiple areas since I was 14 and it feels like my brain has deteriorated as a result. I'm also a god damn drug addict and I've never had any guidance in my life so I feel lost pretty much all the time. I also think I've developed mental issues because I start melting down whenever I have to do stuff in public. I don't even know why I keep going besides being afraid of death, I know I'll have to live the rest of my life in constant pain.
>>10414828Hate was not part of the equation, you actually helped me puke, thank you.
