>>4063668im un ironically playing with a loaded 12ga in my mouth. i mean rounds in the chamber and nothings near the trigger but its just such a giddy idea to me everytime i put the barrel towards my head that i could just flick that little piece of metal there and evacuate my brain from my head. i mean its cool dude we're all going to die right? i could literally just -skip- it all. all the pain and suffering i have dealt with i could just not deal with anymore. just a nice little flick/click /whatever on this piece of metal and i will instantly remove my brain fromy my head and i wont be here anymore. i just wont BE HERE anymore. i might not exist at all. who knows . who fucking cares. think of the hordes of souls that have become dead before me. so many fucking assholes just dead and lifeless and not here anymore. i could be one of them in like . 02 seconds.
