>>10939660>Everything kinda sucks now, and i don't really know what to do...Oh, boy, Jack. Perhaps the only reasonable thing you can do is keep up your perspective. Begin now to visualize yourself months from now, when the healing period is over, pain has ended, and mobility has been restored.
In between, insert that optic into every painful and despairing thought that emerges, to reinforce that end goal.
It might be helpful for you to hand a good-sized picture of your happiest self with that leg prominently featured...hung some place where you will see it most.
▪ A tip for someone who knows this works:
Find a book of easily read RHYMING POETRY to bring with you to the hospital.
During my two months in hospital, a friend sent me a volume of John Donne & William Blake. Morphine and the like is dispersed well-after the pain it diminishes comes back with a vengence.
In between, the METER of read poetry will likely help phase you back into a Zone where you will unwittingly forget how bad the pain truly is.
▪You just might find it helps sustain you during the two to three hour time-span between pain killers wearing off, then given to you again.
Truth be told, it also helped me during my long recovery at home, and, through the years since with the ones that never actually went away.
>Weird fact: the accident was 1976. You may have seen me mention recently that EVERYTHING IS CHANGING. Well, up until the past few weeks, every moment since the spinal pain was so prominent, it got to the point it just became a part of me I gave little mind to, except for using techniques to loosen the five degenerated disks to find some relief.IT'S ONLY IN THE PAST WEEK THAT I've come to relize the pain seems to have completely vanished.
Miracle? Seems like it. Keep faith, and place your total being in the hands of the Almighty. You just might find your uneasiness fly away, and your healing a shortened, steady one,
Love to you, Jack. Keep yourself centered.