>>12796830When I have had a very irregular sleep scheduled I would relatively consistently wake up in a haze, seemingly having a psychotropic trip where I am hyper aware of my own consciousness and the inevitable temporary nature of my existence followed by a complete detachment from my own understanding of my self and ego. I would get up and look in the mirror that I had beside my bed and literally not recognize who I saw. It's the strangest thing because while I can vividly remember it I can't replicate the feeling of existential dread, thinking "my consciousness will cease to exist even though right now I am hyper aware of my own individual existence." and just being hit with the absolute full force and reality of that thought. By far the strangest thing I've ever experienced.
