>>7966169>>7966161I can tell OP is depressed, he's reaching out like anyone does when they're depressed. OP is flirting with the idea of suicide as a way of escaping his current reality.
You need to stop having sex with women, and stop watching porn. I was addicted myself, you have to wean yourself off. Now I have a fleshlight and I don't watch or listen to anything.
I stopped porn and having sex with women. I am waiting on marriage. You should do the same. Wait and be monogomous, do not have sex before you marry that woman. Then have children.
You do not have enough to retire on. Find a place to move to, get an apartment and find a job. Once you have employment, pay off all yur debts. Then buy a modest home and a cheap vehicle with that cash. Possibly purchase a rental home with that cash too. Then invest the rest into the stock market.
You have the attitude and wisdom to know your sex addition is wrong, you are young and have enough money to get started and live through your entire life never being in debt.
You are experiencing a quarter life crisis. If you do not take control of your life now, you will never have control.
