I think it's the fact that I truly am alone this time that makes me cry. Maybe this is the best way to understand how to grow up. It's frustrating when the future is so uncertain, how I just wish for a little stability but barely have any options or fall back plans. My old pal aided me this once and it made me so grateful, but even I know this is just a one time thing. Today it's this crappy hotel room with a few belongings, tomorrow it may be the sidewalk with nothing but my jacket. This truly is a time to be alive and reflect. I'm happy from what I had before but it hurts knowing I was never grateful or contributed to it, if anything I abused it. I don't feel well now but I have to force myself to sleep for my classes tomorrow. I wish I could stop going but at least I should finish the semester the best way I possibly can. I've been crying since my last post but maybe it will help me get tired so I can sleep.
>>7838859I appreciate the offer anon, but I'm not sure if it's alright for me to accept help, not after what I did to my mother, my father and my brother all these years.
