>>9591430I forgot what is normal desu. I've been having strong anxiety since I was in kindergarten and been strongly depressed since the age of 16 (20 now). Therapist said that the main reason could be because when I was 9 months old my mom went to work again and I was crying incessantly because I wanted to be with her (yes, my problems seem to have been caused by feminism-induced-childhood neglect).
I also regulalry exercise, don't fap too often and eat healthy but I hardly feel even ok. The ADs decrease social anxiety so I guess it's at least something (benzos work too but after being addicted to them I don't plan to use them anymore).
I haven't felt happy in such a long time, not when drunk, not when on opioids (tho they are fucking amazing) not when in love... there is always this void, homesickness, bitter loneliness, sense of incompletness inside of me. I file like I don't belong in this world, I know it sounds faggy but that's how things are.
Maybe, given enough time, I'll grow numb to those feeling and just become a soulless normie like everyone else.
