>>16990672Well, it's rather complicated, and nuanced, but let me try to explain it in detail:
I'm an idiot, that's why.
But in all sincerity: It was huge leap to take, to leave Finland behind and move to a totally foreign country which I have never visited. I chickened out. I also placed too much value on the people I had in my life, thinking they were more than they really were. I was probably codependent to some degree.
I also turned down a few month long programming gig in Portugal because a woman. To think of it I've pretty much ruined my entire life, by being too timid and turning down all sorts of opportunities that most people don't even get.
