You know it seems strange but when drinking or I assume similar activities I feel almost closer to God... when my mind is able to wander and not be held down. I wonder if evil can hold us down by our mere ability to think. IT seems to be real and I cannot deny it now... but does tha tmake God real?
Thank you so much mods btw, it means a lot not deleting this. I really need(ed) this and it really means the most from you... Thank you. I'm sorry I don't normally break down like this it truly is once in a year at most if nt once every 2 years... Thank you.
>>5924392You know my dad walked out on us when I was 1. I never cared. My sister was just being born, but it didnt matte cause we never knew him. He was just the guy who brought us toys every so often. I never did care. I still dont. But I cant help but wonder that if perhaps a male father figure had given me guidance I wouldn't have screwed up with that first girl, or maybe this second. This second is the only person i've met who is truly worthwhile. ... Truly worth chasing....
My discord is Selaphiell#4600 I can still control myself but I can also kinda sorta feel myself making an ass of myself.
>>5924393Agreed completely anon - we must succeed, we must push. Thank you as well. Take my discord. I swear on my life to all of you that I will sooner die than give you up. That is no lie drunk or not. I greatly appreciate it... and I am kinda curious. Do other people when drunk get as appreciative as I do? I don't drink often. I really shouldnt have but it truly has helped me a ton.... Maybe I will learn moderation as I should have so long ago...
