Don't really know where I am on that spectrum, but I have had some major mental breakthroughs and I'm pretty dammed black pilled. I have always failed when I try to put it into words, and dont have much desire to. the eternal dao you speak of is not the eternal dao, and all that jazz
deconstructed my ego years ago. but now It feels I am just wearing it as a suit to interact with the world around me, don't really identify with it though. still get anxious around people but I have always been like this, not sure what to do about that one.
Everything anyone ever talks about sounds so fucken mundane. I see society getting madder by the day and all I can seem to do is stand there with a slightly tilted head, with a puzzled look on my face. I feel like an old man.
Gonna go live in the mountains this summer and just be, don't have many other desires desu
>>10432702what keeps you going day by day?
