>>15061322Yes and no... it's a cope of sorts. In hindsight I never really felt like others, or like I fit in 100%. I simply assimilated well and just settled for what "normal" was. I was very social up until my early 20s, had tons of "friends" which are more just acquaintances in reality, and had a couple of closer friends who knew more about me(but never really KNEW me). I slowly drifted away to become a loner, mostly because I wasn't into drinking and other shit 20 year olds are told to be into. At first you think it was just a series of events that ultimately led to where you are now, and doing certain things differently may have not led to being a loner... but the reality is that you were meant to be this way. Like I already stated, if you never really felt you fit in to start with, and simply "played along," then you were destined to drift from other eventually anyways. I probably unironically have a very mild form of autism or something else, but it's likely not easily spotted by others in most circumstances. I remember having ocd from a very young age, doing rituals to appease the inner-monologue. It's definitely not good to be a loner, saying otherwise is a cope. You just get used to it so it doesn't seem as bad as it once was. Sure, it's good to be self-sufficient and not mentally crumble when you don't have others to talk to, but it only makes you more set in your ways and gives you delusions of grandeur. I have no desire to befriend the average person, they are naive and annoying, but there are plenty of people you can get along with and meet that aren't that far gone. The idea that everyone is a retarded NPC is something you start to think when your only social interaction is an echo-chamber.
