>>21648123>I'm 40 and childlessSame
>>21648112>What compels a childless man to wake up when he knows he’s a genetic deadend?A lot of times I consider the court eunuchs of former eras - many of whom amassed serious power and wealth. That's basically what I am at this point. "Family men" have so much on the line and so much they have to pay attention to. Guys who don't have nearly unlimited free time in comparison.
I'm lucky that I've been able to take opportunities within my job and get a lot of headway, but it has never - ever - been easy. A big part of how I've been able to deal with it and the stress though is that I never had wife / kids stressing me at home or pulling me in 99 different directions.
The only reward in the end is just material possessions and money. Trust me that I have deeply regretted my scenario many times in the last twenty years, but like others have said: Lol, when you're fucking 40, there is nothing that can be done anymore. Not unless you wanted to become a Sexpat or scoop up some SEA village girl or something. Any fertile white chick in her 20s is off-limits according to all social mores.
All that remains is what you make in this life. I wrote about 50 songs in the last 4 years (started during Covid). I'm scheduled to publish my first book in 2025. They won't make me immortal and they're no substitute for children. They are however, my ideas pushed forward in time. My (actual) memes, morals, thoughts, etc. Past that is death.
I almost died in 2016 and tl;dr - I can tell you with 100% certainty that God is real and so is eternity (I don't presume to pick a religion). Both are wildly beyond the comprehension of anyone on this planet. Comforting to know there is something after - something absolutely constant and true past our stupid monkey-world.
