>>4754868Holy shit that’s straight up fucked, I have a similar story, not nearly as bad.
>me>dumbass kid>practically autistic>think wiping your ass was just an optional comfort thing>this goes on for years because am too idiotic to draw connections>gets really bad one point>bleeding from ass>go to doctor>nurse shove creme covered finger in my pooper>holy fucking shit that’s cold>years later when I’m jerkin it I remember>feel shame>can’t remember if it felt good or not>finger meself>feels good>grow up conflicted about my sexuality>realize I’m probably straight with a femdom fantasy>watch so much drawn, and animated porn that sexualising humans in just wierd>mfw my homosexual feels are from me not wiping my ass>mfw I’ve had people crush on me and never cared, or thought about sex>mfw I try to discourage others from getting in relationships with me because I’m probably unstable>mfw because parents are in military I always move and don’t want a gf I’ll probably never see again>mfw I probably won’t have a gf in a long timeOh well
